Outside

I feel like an outside in a world I created
I feel like I'm no longer part of the team
Just a subsitute on the bench
until your new top player lets you down
once I was your top player
Now I've been regulated
feel like I've been regurgiated
swallowed whole
only to be spat back out
tossed out in the trash
like yesterday's newspaper
I tried to be there for you
but apparently it wasn't enough
I guess it's just tough
I'll have to just supress what's inside
keep it silent and hide
smile like I didn't notice
you only speak to me to be nice
whereas it was once for joy
now I'm nothing more than a toy.

May 10