I am Pagan

At first everyone thought it was just a phase

that I'd soon grow out of it

I was just a teenager

fascinated by the promise of magic and spells

But as time wore on,

I didn't stop reading

every aspect of my life became affected

my choices became clearer

and now I had beliefs I held much dearer

I never even knew I had a faith

but when I discovered paganism

I knew I had been one all along

over the years

things have changed

sometimes I've neglected it, other times I've worked so hard on it,

but still the same

it always remains

the premise for me is so simple

"do what you will but harm none"

respecting the earth

and keeping in mind the power of three times three

all these years later I can't think of anything I'd rather be

my whole life this has been who I am

I am a pagan

and I am proud.

29/1/12

Tired

I'm so tired

I've forgotten what it's like to be wired

it's not that I don't sleep

just that my emotions run deep

life recently has been hard

and I want to give it the red card

life is a funny thing

there's been times I want to sing

but then another day, another week, another year

all I can do is shed a tear

wishing things could be simple

like love and friendship would always run smoothly

like there would never be problems with work

and the house always would stay clean

and money would never be mean

but that wouldn't be life would it

you can't always make it fit

I am so tired

wake me up when the party's over...

22/1/12

A Love Letter to the Library

There's one place that apart from the places I've lived

that has always been there for me

through thick and thin

when I've felt alone

when I've needed to get away

a place where I can learn

a place where I can fantasise

about forgotten lands and magic spells

a place of quiet

a place of tranquility

filled with words

and filled with pages

even music and dvds..

and it barely costs a thing

everytime I leave with a pile of new books to read

much more satisfying than a shopping mall

Libraries, you make the world a better place..

15/1//2012

January

Oh January

you and I have a turbulent relationship

you always make promises you can't keep

and I get so overexcited I can barely sleep

making plans in my head

if I did them all I'd probably fall dead

you always let me down

with a frown

you give me hope, you can give me dreams

then you rip them up at the seams

you pull the carpet from beneath my feet

and knock right off my self righteous seat

you make me ill, you give me stress

and I always end up in a mess

yet you know I'll be fooled again

and I'll feel like I'm stuck in the rain

but it takes sunshine AND rain to make a rainbow

so I'll see you through

and wait for the sun to emerge

9/1/12

2012

Well last year I wrote a post about my writing goals for 2011, so may as well do it this year too!

Last year I said I would make a zine, well I wrote and published two, I have another one, I just need to get it printed. I had some success with it, my friends who read it gave positive feedback and I did two swaps with people for Issue Two. My friend Catherine even reviewed it

I started editing my NaNoWrimo from 2010, but thanks to having to reinstall the computer a few times, I lost a lot of my original editing so had to start again, as a result I'm still editing, I hate editing with a passion but I really hope that I can manage to finish it this year. I kind of did a novel in 2011 too, but I'm not sure yet if I want to do anything with the story part of what I did.

I did lots of writing for websites, I started off writing a few bits for Wears the Trousers, but found they edited my work more than I was happy with, and did some things for thegirlsare, who would sometimes edit slightly but not as much and they would normally talk me through the edit, so I would be aware and able to learn. I did some pieces for JoyZine who don't do any editing and don't have a particular style guideline and also some pieces I'm really proud of for my favourite blog The F Word.

so this year- I want to finish editing the 2010 novel
to write more pieces for websites, especially things like the riot grrrl piece I wrote for the f word.
hopefully to get a bit of a name for myself on the music writing/blogging circuit!