Tired

I'm so tired

I've forgotten what it's like to be wired

it's not that I don't sleep

just that my emotions run deep

life recently has been hard

and I want to give it the red card

life is a funny thing

there's been times I want to sing

but then another day, another week, another year

all I can do is shed a tear

wishing things could be simple

like love and friendship would always run smoothly

like there would never be problems with work

and the house always would stay clean

and money would never be mean

but that wouldn't be life would it

you can't always make it fit

I am so tired

wake me up when the party's over...

22/1/12

A Love Letter to the Library

There's one place that apart from the places I've lived

that has always been there for me

through thick and thin

when I've felt alone

when I've needed to get away

a place where I can learn

a place where I can fantasise

about forgotten lands and magic spells

a place of quiet

a place of tranquility

filled with words

and filled with pages

even music and dvds..

and it barely costs a thing

everytime I leave with a pile of new books to read

much more satisfying than a shopping mall

Libraries, you make the world a better place..

15/1//2012

January

Oh January

you and I have a turbulent relationship

you always make promises you can't keep

and I get so overexcited I can barely sleep

making plans in my head

if I did them all I'd probably fall dead

you always let me down

with a frown

you give me hope, you can give me dreams

then you rip them up at the seams

you pull the carpet from beneath my feet

and knock right off my self righteous seat

you make me ill, you give me stress

and I always end up in a mess

yet you know I'll be fooled again

and I'll feel like I'm stuck in the rain

but it takes sunshine AND rain to make a rainbow

so I'll see you through

and wait for the sun to emerge

9/1/12

2012

Well last year I wrote a post about my writing goals for 2011, so may as well do it this year too!

Last year I said I would make a zine, well I wrote and published two, I have another one, I just need to get it printed. I had some success with it, my friends who read it gave positive feedback and I did two swaps with people for Issue Two. My friend Catherine even reviewed it

I started editing my NaNoWrimo from 2010, but thanks to having to reinstall the computer a few times, I lost a lot of my original editing so had to start again, as a result I'm still editing, I hate editing with a passion but I really hope that I can manage to finish it this year. I kind of did a novel in 2011 too, but I'm not sure yet if I want to do anything with the story part of what I did.

I did lots of writing for websites, I started off writing a few bits for Wears the Trousers, but found they edited my work more than I was happy with, and did some things for thegirlsare, who would sometimes edit slightly but not as much and they would normally talk me through the edit, so I would be aware and able to learn. I did some pieces for JoyZine who don't do any editing and don't have a particular style guideline and also some pieces I'm really proud of for my favourite blog The F Word.

so this year- I want to finish editing the 2010 novel
to write more pieces for websites, especially things like the riot grrrl piece I wrote for the f word.
hopefully to get a bit of a name for myself on the music writing/blogging circuit!

Some more published work

Introducing: Rock in Your Pocket

The Re-Emergence of Riot Grrrl and Politics? - I'm pretty pleased with this one, would love to know what you all think.

Merry Christmas!

This year's Nanowrimo

I haven't posted yet about what happened with this years nanowrimo
well it started off pretty well, I worked on the same principle as last year, to write the target amount each day of 1667 words. I used the twitter word sprints again and also discovered a neat little tool called written kitten which brings up pictures of cats when you write a set amount of words. I started writing a story which kept going in different directions (as it tends to do) I thought it was going to be about a girl discovering feminism and riot grrrl, but then it kind of changed to a fantasy story. It kind of turned into some sort of story about a girl with depression who then meets all sorts of magical creatures that try to help her overcome it. There is other stuff in it but it's a bit all over the place.
Then one day I just didn't know what to write next and I felt like I had really just been kind of writing about myself in a kind of metaphorical sense. But I was about half way by this point so I didn't want to give up, so the other half of the month I just wrote a kind of stream of conciousness thing writing what ever I felt like writing about, whether it was about my emotions or certain memories.
So I did do the 50,000 words this year for the 2nd time but I kind of felt like I cheated as it wasn't one whole story and I don't even know if I want to edit the story bit. I'm still editing the one from 2010! Maybe next year's will be better...

Letters

There's nothing like the feeling you get when you heard the daily sound of letters falling through your letterbox. You think it's probably just the usual bills and/or junk mail from credit card companies or charities asking for donations. Instead, as you yawn and drearily trudge your way to the front door, you look down at the pile on the floor and notice the address on the envelope is handwritten. A feeling of curiosity and intrigue replaces the tired and bored one. Instead of going straight to the kettle for the usual morning kick up the arse in caffeine form, you start ripping the envelope open, eager to see what lurks inside. Your heart lifts as you see the handwritten words, dated only yesterday as it's been posted first class. Obviously someone really wanted to write to you. You smile as you finish reading it's from your best friend just to say hello.